Smells like Rain

often go to hell or at least a place with a very similar temperature." Wait, that's not how that quote goes.

I expected to spend yesterday finally catching up on some chores. I'm behind and slowly catching up. I'm still waking up tired, without any energy whatsoever, despite how many hours I sleep. This has made getting through each day (what's left of them) very difficult. Yesterday I did wake up late after not being able to sleep; however, I didn't feel as weak as usual. So I got up and started to get to work. My plan was to feed Aaliyah, eat, and then get to cleaning. Just as I was mixing her food, almost ready to heat things up, the power flickered.

My Brain: "What the... Oh, at least the power didn't go ou-ahh, damn it."

It was about 2:45pm. It was at least 105 degrees out. To say I was hot as hell would be an understatement. Seriously, it was horrible. For some reason keeping my windows open doesn't help much with getting some nice air in unless it's super windy out, so I tend to have the air on more than I'd like. Aaliyah and I were miserable. Okay, she was upset as soon as she found out she wouldn't be able to eat the food I was making, the heat was just extra. In fact, she said she would make it when I said I couldn't, lol. After going through a few foods she finally agreed to an orange instead.
We did take off to the pool for a little while to cool off. Luckily (for them) most people were still at work so it wasn't crowded. I did consider going to my brother's house (he recently got into his first house and mortgage) but their power was out too! I spotted a neighbor in his car listening to music. Too bad my a/c compressor doesn't work or that would have been an awesome idea. Power was slowly restored in sections of town, little by little, so we were able to head out to the store by 8. Usually I hate walking into this store (some of the people are rude, customers included, lol), yet after enduring all of those horrible hours of eat, it was like ~heaven~ . LOL. Seriously, it was a relief. Even when the cashier was an ass I couldn't be too mad under the air conditioner. I'm not sure exactly when my apartment had life again, it was back on by the time we got home.

Since I couldn't vacuum, wash and dry laundry (some people were in the laundry room when it happened), and the kitchen and bathroom were too dark to clean; I really didn't get much done. It was a struggle to put up the clean laundry. Plus I had things to catch up with online (this wasn't the blog I planned to type, lol) which obviously couldn't be done. Oh, and so much for cooking instead of eating out again. Ugh. Whatever. Yesterday sucked. It's a new day, that's what should matter.
Actually the new day started 5 hours ago and I've yet to sleep... Yeah, this day's not starting off too well.

LOL, I'm up late making some jalapeno poppers. I've been putting off making them for so long that I had to cook them up before the jalapenos finally went bad. And wow, I suck at getting any type of bread crumb to stick to anything, lol. My breaded shrimp usually isn't very breaded at all. It took me a while to get it this time.



Noel and I went to Vegas (of course we left my car at home!). Friday night was spent celebrating his friend's album release party. Monday we spent some time cruising around for something to do, and then stopped at State Line on the way home. Next time we really need to stay longer. We were trying to fit so much into such a short amount of time. Once we got there and found something to eat, we didn't want to go out at all, lol. I'd imagine most people would feel that way after driving (he drove part of the way, I drove part of the way while he slept, and then he drove right before we got to Vegas) for about 2.5 hours It didn't help that Aaliyah woke up early the night/morning before and WOULD. NOT. GO. TO. SLEEP. despite being tired. After the party and sleeping, we had to wake up and rush out before check out time. Next time I'll plan to stay a few more days so we can have time to rest. It was kinda last minute, I didn't expect to go. It was so short and rushed that I'm not sure about checking off "take a vacation" from my 1001 Days List... OMG, we had the best pizza Monday afternoon. The guy at the counter said it was the best in town. All I was thinking was, "Yeah, of course you would say *bites* ...Damn, you weren't lying." Oh, and Noel almost got kicked out the casino because they thought he was underage with a fake ID. His picture is from high school. I guess he wasn't in town to renew it, so the form was sent off and they reused the picture. He looks older now (and it's obviously his picture), I don't get why someone would buy a fake ID with a picture of someone that looks younger. And he doesn't want to pay for another one. Oh well, lol.



I know I'm always feeling blah over money so you'd think I would have stayed home. I stay home all the damn time. Even when I had a job... I just needed to get away, even if just for a day. I tried to saved money where possible during our trip while still allowing for some fun. I hardly ever spend time or money for myself, so I don't feel bad about it.



I wish I wasn't so self-conscience. It makes it so hard to relax and have fun around people I'm not used to be around. Actually, I noticed more and more that I'm getting more self-conscience even around those people. I have no idea what's wrong or where to start, assuming I could do anything in the first place. I hated feeling this way years ago, now that I'm worse off I really feel bad. I hate how it's just not messing with my social life, it's everything else too. Like going back to school. Some days I feel like it'll be just as easy as ever, most days I feel as if I can't get back into it, and even if I did I'm not good enough in one area to turn my focus on.

Just some random stuff, since I've been away for a while...



Once again I'm debating over just making PurrMeow.net my personal AND collective site since I hardly blog at either one now, lol or keeping everything how it is. The only thing stopping me is another domain I have. I wanted the name before anyone else registered it, now I'm not sure if I want to use it for here or not. I should probably start by blogging more before I make a decision to change domains, lol.



Ugh, I have allergies. Certain things have always caused a few sneezes here and there, but for the last few days I've been struggling with headaches and my nose. I think it's something in/around my apartment. When the air's off (not often, it's been almost 100 degrees out lately!) I'm fine, once it's on my nose stuffs up and sometimes my brain head too. I'm going to try to get the manager to change the filter and hope for the best. This sucks. I've been typing this entry with my mouth open to breathe.

Aaliyah turned 3 in April. I went to the store with plans to buy either an Elmo cake or a Spongebob cake, they had both. I let her pick and she had a serious face the whole time, until she finally made her choice. Such big decisions.

I took Aaliyah swimming today. She's done so plenty of times, just not too often in one that isn't considered a kiddie pool. It took Noel forever to get in the water, a little while for me, and Aaliyah pretty much made us look bad and went for it. Once I got used to my lower body temperature it was pretty damn relaxing.



Oh yeah, my car sucks again. Nothing new. A few months ago I was thinking about how awesome it was that my tax money wasn't going towards my car, then a few days later the air compressor died RIGHT before I planned a trip out of town. Driving in a 4-wheel piece of metal for at least half an hour through the hot desert summer sun without cold air? No. Hell. No. I ended up dropping off my car to be looked at and my mom was awesome and took Aaliyah and I out of town in her air conditioned car. Ugh, I was hoping it just needed a simple change of fluid. I'll probably get the part from a junkyard, it's going to be expensive for the labor though. I swear, I would just get another car if I had the down payments and a job (nothing new there either, that search isn't going anywhere).



Things have been really up and down. Seriously. I don't want to get into it. It seems like as soon as I overcome one thing, something else comes up. I know life isn't easy, but damn it. Can I have one day of just bliss?

I could write a long post about my feelings and thoughts. I won't, at least not right now. It's late (well, 1:30am is early for me, lol), I'm tired, and I've had a long day (I didn't get home until around midnight, I was out doing a ton of laundry). Let me just sum up my current thoughts with...

Too bad some of the people that need it most won't be around by the time it actually starts.

Hm. I can't decide if I should just stay up until late tonight, stay up and try to take a nap later (try: make sure I don't sleep too long), or just sleep. I've been a little better at getting to sleep earlier, but last night I had way too much on my mind.