Smells like Rain

I was so ambitious the last few weeks of December. Then it went away, lol. I think you can see by my blogging pattern during that time.


The first few days, and actually New Years Eve, were spent being depressed about how much 2009 sucked, and a deep feeling 2010 would be just the same. I know, that's a great attitude to start off the year.


I've been getting more done the last few days, but stressing out about the future was getting to me again. A lot of what if's. And more recently I've been getting my butt kicked by a toothache, one tooth that's hurt me on and off the last few years and another that started last year. Damn my fear of dentists, damn it. I actually did go last year for a check up, so now it's more of a matter finding a way to pay for treatment. Oh, and all day I've been tasting garlic, lol. It's because I used some to treat the tooth (which works wonderfully!). It was so bad I really couldn't think, and even then that wasn't as bad as the abscess tooth I had a few years ago.

Speaking of not getting things done aside from wallowing in pain, I really need to take a few days out and just focus. For every project or task I come up with, there's probably five others I put off. I'm ambitious just not motivated? I don't know, it's 5am, I've yet to sleep, the tooth pain is slowly coming back (I'm sick of garlic), and I'm rambling. This post lacks any meaning or sense aside for feeling like I should blog something.