Smells like Rain

LOL, I'm up late making some jalapeno poppers. I've been putting off making them for so long that I had to cook them up before the jalapenos finally went bad. And wow, I suck at getting any type of bread crumb to stick to anything, lol. My breaded shrimp usually isn't very breaded at all. It took me a while to get it this time.



Noel and I went to Vegas (of course we left my car at home!). Friday night was spent celebrating his friend's album release party. Monday we spent some time cruising around for something to do, and then stopped at State Line on the way home. Next time we really need to stay longer. We were trying to fit so much into such a short amount of time. Once we got there and found something to eat, we didn't want to go out at all, lol. I'd imagine most people would feel that way after driving (he drove part of the way, I drove part of the way while he slept, and then he drove right before we got to Vegas) for about 2.5 hours It didn't help that Aaliyah woke up early the night/morning before and WOULD. NOT. GO. TO. SLEEP. despite being tired. After the party and sleeping, we had to wake up and rush out before check out time. Next time I'll plan to stay a few more days so we can have time to rest. It was kinda last minute, I didn't expect to go. It was so short and rushed that I'm not sure about checking off "take a vacation" from my 1001 Days List... OMG, we had the best pizza Monday afternoon. The guy at the counter said it was the best in town. All I was thinking was, "Yeah, of course you would say *bites* ...Damn, you weren't lying." Oh, and Noel almost got kicked out the casino because they thought he was underage with a fake ID. His picture is from high school. I guess he wasn't in town to renew it, so the form was sent off and they reused the picture. He looks older now (and it's obviously his picture), I don't get why someone would buy a fake ID with a picture of someone that looks younger. And he doesn't want to pay for another one. Oh well, lol.



I know I'm always feeling blah over money so you'd think I would have stayed home. I stay home all the damn time. Even when I had a job... I just needed to get away, even if just for a day. I tried to saved money where possible during our trip while still allowing for some fun. I hardly ever spend time or money for myself, so I don't feel bad about it.



I wish I wasn't so self-conscience. It makes it so hard to relax and have fun around people I'm not used to be around. Actually, I noticed more and more that I'm getting more self-conscience even around those people. I have no idea what's wrong or where to start, assuming I could do anything in the first place. I hated feeling this way years ago, now that I'm worse off I really feel bad. I hate how it's just not messing with my social life, it's everything else too. Like going back to school. Some days I feel like it'll be just as easy as ever, most days I feel as if I can't get back into it, and even if I did I'm not good enough in one area to turn my focus on.