Smells like Rain

I'm on Netflix watching How to Be a Serial Killer, for Matthew Gray Gubler. I just started it. It's kind of late to be starting a movie, but I'd just be in bed watching Criminal Minds reruns anyway, lol. I'm typing this up in a mini Notepad window in the corner of my browser.

Last Thursday I took Aaliyah to the dentist. That was an... interesting trip. Interesting, but not very useful. They had me sit in the chair with her on my lap so she could be comfortable. They were really nice and concerned about making sure she was comfortable before she was looked at. Unfortunately she wasn't having it, lol. Aaliyah kept asking to go home. She never liked it when I looked in her mouth during her I'm going to see if I can eat everything I find days, so she was really uncomfortable with strangers trying to do so. An even bigger issue is they handed me a referral to a dentist that could give her something so she would be worked on; however the closest one that accepts her insurance is a few hours away. I'm considering making her another appointment in town and hoping she's more comfortable, I just doubt it. When I finally convinced her to agree to have her "teeth brushed" (cleaned), I showed her the "tooth brush" and asked if she would use that. Her response was a sad voice stating, "Nooo. It's dirty." Well, compared to the Elmo and Disney Princess toothbrushes she has owned, it did look kinda ugly.

Today, er, yesterday, was one of my "lazy days". That's when I have a bunch of crap to do, plan to do it, and then convince myself I have a valid excuse not to, lol. I'm trying to fight a cold before it gets worse and help Aaliyah through hers. At least she'll be able to get to sleep tonight. We managed not to get sick during all those days of rain and got hit now that we're having warmer days. I was actually supposed to blog here a week ago, lol.

It may be 2 minutes before 4am as I start typing this thought, but I acutally don't mind. Despite the time, I'm glad I spent it getting things done instead of being upset about not being able to sleep. Okay, so I thought about it while I was working, LOL, the point still stands, damn it!

I finally emptied the freezer, cleaned it out, went through things (OMG, I still have no idea what a couple of things are that I took out from the back, LOL, all I know is that they could be up to 2 years old ), organized it, and took inventory of what was there. Now I can open/dig in/stock the freezer without closing the door and running from the occasional frozen food avalanche. I already cleaned, organized, and inventoried one cabinet earlier this month (it wasn't scary like the freezer), and I still have two more to do. The remaining cabinets aren't even bad or full, I just need to take note of everything I have. I want to plug everything into a recipe site so I can find new things to make (I gave up enchiladas for a few months just so I could eat them again... two meals of them and I'm tired of them again!) with what I have on hand, and eat at home more. It was fun going out, but last week I ate way too many meals out.

I won't lie, I had Taco Bell for dinner last night, LOL. I actually have their taco seasoning, plenty of ground beef, shells, cheese, and even hot sauce from their restaurant. A box of shells and I could have saved a few bucks. Browning some ground beef would have taken less effort than getting LeeLee and myself ready and heading out and back.

While I didn't get through more than half of my list of things to do for the day, I did get some work done so I'm pleased. Sunday night I cleaned out all of my coupons and my purse, and updated both my budget spreadsheet and the savings (tracking my coupon use) spreadsheet.


Oh, and I was supposed to post pictures from my Project 365 task. I'm just not very pleased with them. Since I started the New Year in a horrible mood (and things got worse for a while), I didn't stick with it. I started over on the 17^th. I forgot to take my camera with me one day and ended up taking the picture when I arrived home after midnight, yet I'm going to keep going. I expect something to happen from time to time during the remainder of the year, so I'm not upset about it. I learned a couple of new things about my camera. The pictures are better, just boring since I started doing the project again as more of a chore than something fun. That will change, and I'll start sharing.

I was so ambitious the last few weeks of December. Then it went away, lol. I think you can see by my blogging pattern during that time.


The first few days, and actually New Years Eve, were spent being depressed about how much 2009 sucked, and a deep feeling 2010 would be just the same. I know, that's a great attitude to start off the year.


I've been getting more done the last few days, but stressing out about the future was getting to me again. A lot of what if's. And more recently I've been getting my butt kicked by a toothache, one tooth that's hurt me on and off the last few years and another that started last year. Damn my fear of dentists, damn it. I actually did go last year for a check up, so now it's more of a matter finding a way to pay for treatment. Oh, and all day I've been tasting garlic, lol. It's because I used some to treat the tooth (which works wonderfully!). It was so bad I really couldn't think, and even then that wasn't as bad as the abscess tooth I had a few years ago.

Speaking of not getting things done aside from wallowing in pain, I really need to take a few days out and just focus. For every project or task I come up with, there's probably five others I put off. I'm ambitious just not motivated? I don't know, it's 5am, I've yet to sleep, the tooth pain is slowly coming back (I'm sick of garlic), and I'm rambling. This post lacks any meaning or sense aside for feeling like I should blog something.

I'm not doing anything fun for New Years Eve, just finishing up with deep cleaning the carpets, lol. I finished the rest of the bedroom on Tuesday. I finished off half of the living room yesterday evening. I don't have room to move everything out of the way, so I have to go about it like this. Sucks, but oh well. I'm trying to organize everything. LeeLee got some nice things for Christmas, including a little kitchen set (cool, she can stop messing with my stuff ) and a toddler desk. When things are dry, I want to make a little hidden section of the living room for her toys. I've been on the Internet looking at room dividers and such.



This is where I would be typing up my plans and goals for 2010, but I've been blogging about my goals and planned life changes for a while. I guess my New Years resolution is to keep at working towards those goals.



I hope you all have a great New Years Eve and a happy 2010!

No matter what you celebrate, I hope you've had or will be having a great and happy holiday!


My family doesn't open gifts until the night of Christmas Eve (and Christmas night is spent eating the big dinner), so I still have a few hours before I get ready to head out. I'm glad I stopped to blog, the Christmas tree smilie just reminded me to grab my camera for pictures of the tree as I've posted previous years, which then reminded me of the Christmas outfit Noel's dad got for Aaliyah to wear.


Despite being asked constantly what I wanted for Christmas I have very little clue to what I'm getting, aside from the few things I picked at the last minute when we went out of town. When asked I always said I didn't know. I got over most of my wants a while ago so I couldn't really think of much aside for things for around the apartment. Even then it was stuff I could do without.


I'm still a little disappointed I couldn't afford to get everyone a gift this year. Just Aaliyah and her cousins. Even then, it wasn't much (just some writing/drawing supplies to go with the kid desks Aaliyah and my nephew are getting and the easel my niece is getting). They really don't need much anyway. They have plenty of clothes and toys. Since they're older now, the toys they're getting are at least ones that will be age appropriate the next few years. I just have to make room for her stuff. I have a few toys (in awesome shape, since she was still at the age she couldn't destroy things very easily, lol) in the trunk of my car to giveaway. Saturday I plan to reorganize the bedroom closet and see what I can push in there. Then, I need to get a few things ready for Noel to move back to his old room at his parent's house, next time he's in town. In addition to that I walked around the apartment and made a list of household things and such to get done before the end of the year. I feel so overwhelmed sometimes. I keep a notebook to write up weekly lists of things to do or remember. Sometimes I even have to do daily lists. Despite never finishing any of the lists completely, just having one allows me to breathe.


Seeing pictures of snow is kinda making me want some again this year. I HATE the cold, but maybe it'll be different this year since I don't have to drive to work in it (that was scary as hell) or walk to work when my car's frozen shut and almost bust my ass 50 times during the stroll.


This year sucked, so I'm more than looking forward to 2010. I don't have any big expectations for it, it's just the fact that it's a new year that makes me feel like I can look forward to something. Anything.