Smells like Rain

Thanks for the comments on my last post, here and on LJ. I know a comment doesn't solve my problems, but it sure makes you feel as if things are a little better.



I thought the 15^th was the last time I would have one of those headaches. I was wrong. My scalp is still aching a bit right now. It started yesterday. Things have been a little better in life, but the stress is still there. I placed an order for some Jamaican Black Castor Oil. People swear by that stuff to do wonders for thinning and loss hair. I just wish I could find the cause of it and see how to prevent it, or at least get it under control. At least this current headache is milder compared to the last. If it is stress related, I'm going to have a very painful week of the 8^th. So much to do, so little time.



I know it doesn't seem like it, but I have been wanting to sit down and blog here for a while now. Mostly about how I'm attempting to cope with being laid off back in February, and Aaliyah's crazy little antics. I just finally got around to it at a bad time. It's 7:30am and I'm not up early, I'm up late. That's another issue I've been having: not being able to sleep. If I go to bed I just stay awake, so I started getting up and doing things. I figured it was better than doing nothing. I think I'm finally at the point where I can crash out for a few hours; therefore, I'm going to try and blog again later today or tomorrow. I just feel so blah all the time, despite anything I attempt to do fix it.



I added a couple more than a few links on the sidebar of places you might find me when I'm slow on updating here. Except for MySpace, I can't remember the last time I updated that thing, lol.



I keep bouncing back and forth between wanting to finish this site off, and finishing of Ambitious Blog instead. I really want AB blog finished first; however, I keep getting bored/tired of dealing with it and I start missing this site. At least what it used to be. I was recently considering revamping an older layout I've used before. I just know that I'd be sick of it faster and when I'm sick of a layout, I tend to not want to blog until it's replaced. I'll get things in order eventually.


I'm going to start some Criminal Mind episodes and try to sleep. I'm sleeping on the couch so I can hear the door. I signed up for a promotion at so I'm getting $10 worth of food delivered for just 1.08 (delivery charge and tax). Good night, er, morning. Whatever, it's night somewhere in the world.

Image from LardLad

Or not... This is me. Literally.

Okay. So I'm not yellow, a cartoon, named Marge Simpson, rocking blue hair, or many other things; but I think I have lost hair from stress and I did cry. A lot. A lost a lot of hair, and I cried a lot.

A few months ago I noticed that during extra stressful situations I would get headaches. Only instead of being just in the front of my head, they would be in random places on my scalp. Not like anything I've had before. It wasn't like my hair was being pulled, it was like something happening under my scalp. Despite that, I assumed it was my braids. Braids never thinned my hair out before (it actually helped me thicken my hair up, back in the day), even when I DID wear them tight. They weren't tight. I removed the braids. It stopped for a while, and came back a few times here and there. I thought it was over.

I didn't notice on Monday until I relaxer. After a relaxer your hair is flat, so I was able to really tell. The new growth I had for 4.5 months was covering my thinning scalp so I never noticed until I relaxed it. It wasn't from the relaxer, I only lost a couple of strains from normal shedding. After looking closer and seeing it was in more than a few areas, I reviewed some pictures. It was happening over time, around the same time I was getting these headaches!

My thinning is worse on my left side, and on the top of my head towards the back. I had the worst headaches in these places. The bad aches were usually on the top of my head, where the thinning is most noticeable. Last night during Noel's album release party he was nervous and stressed out, so I was getting nervous and stressed out. That same spot on my head was hurting the whole night. It didn't stop until after I was home resting for a few hours.

There are a number of things that may be the reason and the headaches are just a coincidence. I won't know until I can get to the doctor. Sounds like fun without health insurance. Oops! Can't think about money. I. Might. Stress. Out. Um... At least I no longer have to clip my ends from being thinner than the rest of my hair?


Too Long; Didn't Read: Loosing my hair adds to my stress, and stressing out makes me lose hair. Fun times.

I took Smells Like Rain down for a few hours. As stated in the last post, I was going through and selecting certain entries to remove. Half way through I said forget it. I was just going to delete the blog and start again, but instead I kept about a year of posts. Even then, I protected one from 2008. So, with an exception of those and the very first entry, everything else is gone. I like a fresh start without completely starting over, lol. I may open a few up that I've linked to (like 1001 Days related posts, graduation, my daughter's birth); however, that won't be until later on when I do a complete site revamp.

Now that I have that out of the way, I feel better about blogging. Every time I considered it, handling those old posts popped into my head. I can't promise a "real" entry later today since I'm behind on enough, but I will get around to it. Eventually.

What's next for fixing up the site? Tags. The open posts need tags, and I need to clean up the categories. There's too many of them. A few of them can just be turned into tags and deleted. That sounds like... Fun.

Edit @ 3:07am (I can't sleep): The Five Good Things... category is replaced as a tag. Trying to delete it, lol. These are posts I'll probably publish.

Edit: All three subcategories of "pregnancy" have been switched to tags. These are more posts I may publish.

I really miss blogging here. I've just been focused on other things, and it when it comes to blogging, I'm usually working on Ambitious Blog. And to think, I started that blog so I wouldn't have too many entries over here.

I wanted to work on this site as soon finished revamping and moving that one; however, some of the other things I've been working on includes helping Noel with his album. I designed the cd label and cover for him, designed and coded his Myspace, and just yesterday flyers fliers for his release party. I still have to design his official website, which will include several other sites. So, that got me to thinking that I should probably work on PurrMeow Designs. While that was my first time designing an album cover, I did stick my site in the credits and should probably get working on that.

/// SOME BLOG STUFF: Old Entries I love looking back at my old posts. Sometimes I laugh, sometimes I shake my head. LOL. Not too long ago I went and put protected some posts. Now I'm going through and protecting about 99% of them. I do miss my style of writing and hate to close posts from so many years ago (first post was in December 2003!); however, I've moved on from most of that stuff. Nothing I posted was bad and I don't care who has seen it already or who will view it before I get finished, I've just moved on. It sucks that there's certain points in my life that I documented and would like to keep up that will be closed. This time around I'm not going to read through each post, I don't have the time. So far I've kept some of the shorter posts I could quickly skim through. These were mostly site updates. I may start reading more around my pregnancy and keep those few posts. I may even keep a few from senior year. I was considering backing the blog up to my computer and just deleting it to start over. I don't like that idea.

So, from December 2003 and up to just a few months ago I've been locking down the entries. Like I said, nothing I posted was a big deal I just want to move on, especially if I'm going to stick with the long planned idea to have a business under the name. Stupid high school stuff just doesn't mix.

/// SOME BLOG SITE What else? I purchased a domain for this site. I'm not sure if I'll even use it. I like the "juice" I get between this site and the domain, so I may even make it a redirect to this subdomain. I purchased it because there was a discount going on and I can name several times I waited too long to get a domain before it was too late. I loved PurrMeow.net when I registered it, it just wasn't my first choice.

I think that's it for now. As a plus, that means I have a lot less entries to go back and add tags to.

/// SOME SITE STUFF: About the site... It appears as if personal (life) sites aren't as popular anymore. At the same time, I haven't been trying to look around very much. There's a few of you still out there from back in the day (Shelly, Simply-Precious, Sheila, Terin, Brandy, just to name a few I just put in the sidebar ) and that makes me happy. I don't care about the decline. I started this blog mostly for myself, to document my life, even if that means talking about the little things. When I do get back into regularly blogging here it will still be my personal site. I plan to post more pictures like I used to. It seems like during the last few years while I had a lot more to blog about with the many changes going on in my life, those same things going on in my life kept me too busy and disinterested to do so. I'll also add back a lot of the user content.

Well, it's almost 5:30... In the morning. This entry is long enough, but most of this stuff was long overdue to be posted. More posts more often also means less to read each time, LOL, so this type of entry won't be an common thing... Hopefully. Oh yeah, I did fix the broken smilies issue from the upgrade.

If there's any personal sites you frequent, feel free to recommend them. And even though I don't comment very much, I do visit my friends out there.

The smilies for older posts are either broken or displaying the yellow default ones. Blah. I'm working on fixing it. And I took pictures of Aaliyah at the park yesterday I wanted to upload and blog but I'm stuck doing this for now, lol. Hold tight.