Smells like Rain

Yesterday:
Ambrosia's brain: "Hmmm... Some peanut butter cookies would be nice right now... Oooh, peanut butter M&M's! No baking, no oven heating the room up, no waiting. Mmmm..."

An hour ago:
Ambrosia's brain: "I should probably put a few cookies in the oven... Eh, during commercials. Until then I'll keep working on this layout without stopping so I can get it done."

Then during commercials while The Simpsons was on, the news anchor asked if I wanted cookies or something like that. Then she not to and to find out which of the Toll House products are being recalled and what to do with them. o_0

*Twilight Zone theme*

Even though I'm sure I'll be safe (the sites say cooking them should be safe, but they want people not to in case of cross contamination), I do have a habit of eating the little peanut butter chips that pop off when I'm lining the dough on the pan. I'm not surprised, but all this cookie talk REALLY makes me want them. The odds of me getting sick is low, but with my luck?


Homer: "Good thing you turned on that TV, Lisa."
Lisa: "I didn't turn it on, I thought you turned it on."

Homer: "No. Well, anyway, turn it off."
Lisa: "It is off."


Let me stop now. I haven't blogged here or LJ for a while, and here I am. I think it's because I keep procrastinating with this damn layout I've been coding for Noel, so my brain gave me the urge to blog NOW. LOL. I've been working on it so long I'm just tired of it. I have a list of things I need to do as soon as I'm done.

Cross posted from my personal site to LJ... Because I'm lazy cool like that.

No, not a new layout. I just picked a different skin that came with b2evolution. Until I get a new layout up, this will do. This one just looks cleaner. I also started using tags now. I'll go through and tag old posts later. Yeah, wish me luck, lol.

This picture is two chicken gorditas from Plata's (5-09). I swear, there's yummy chicken under all of that yummy, goodness. I noticed how hard I was craving it at about 6:15pm, yesterday (Saturday). You know, 15 minutes after they closed. Plata's isn't open on Sundays.

And before anyone says anything, that's a soda, lol!

I should be in bed now; however, despite getting tired earlier than usual, I stayed up so Aaliyah could eat and now I'm too awake to go to bed. I will after I finish this post.

I know I don't blog much here, not as much as I used to. I have a lot of crap going on in my life, but I post about that in my Livejournal. Even then, I don't post much there. The reason I created Ambitious! was so I didn't have a bunch of entries here. Since things have slowed down I realized that I should have just done it.

I finally finished designing Noel's cd a few months ago. Despite being worried that they would look horrible, they came out really good. Dare I say: professional looking? Between me working (at the time), me not having much faith in myself, and Noel always changing his mind; they took forever and a day to do. I still have to redo the layout for his MySpace, and then work on the layout for his website. He's only using the MySpace because while the place kinda sucks, lol, it's still excellent promotion for musicians trying to get out there. I did take a break with the MySpace work and I'm almost finished with a new layout for PurrMeow Dot Net. Finally! After the MySpace I need to work on Ambitious! and I'll get to here. Promise.

LeeLee... LeeLee. She's a sweet girl, but she can be such a brat sometimes. I thought she was going through terrible twos early. Then when she actually turned two, I realized that earlier stuff wasn't anything. She says no A LOT more, and she's dead serious when she does. She can be so damn stubborn. She returns the evil looks when things don't go her way. Brat.

I need to get to the doctor. Nothing serious, at least I don't think so. I was already feeling fatigue before I was laid off. It's just been a lot worse since then. I thought it was depression over the incident, yet I can say I'm not depressed over it anymore. I haven't been for a while. I'm not saying I don't get worried about money or upset that my plans for the next few years have been thrown off, I'd be lying if I said that. I no longer get really sad or upset when I think about it. I get to move on. I really think the fatigue, aches, not being able to sleep, and not being able to get out of bed when I finally sleep are from something else. What? Who knows.

Um, other than that, things are up and down. While I'm dealing with a lot of crap and I'm usually down, there are things in my life that pick me up. When LeeLee is actually being good she makes me so much happier. Goodnight

Happy Mother's Day to all the mommies out there!

My mom kept telling everyone she doesn't want anything (she always says this) and she has so many movies I still don't know what to get. I'll probably pick up some flowers tomorrow and drop them off at her house while she's at work.

As far as I go, she offered to pay for most, if not all, of my dental work. My appointment for the check up is Monday, so I'll know prices then. Yes. Yes I am scared, lol. She couldn't think of anything to get me either, but she took my brothers in for their checkups and then told me I should go. Then she started saying she would pay for the work. Speaking of which, I need to get Aaliyah in later. Her teeth are fine, but since she has a mouth full they still should look. Good luck with that. It was always hell pulling things from her mouth, trying to give her medicine, or just trying to look in for some new teeth. Then I need to get her into the doctor for her 2 year shots. Last year I got her in a few weeks early. Yes, I'm falling off.

Aaliyah turned two on the 20th. I'll stop being lazy eventually and upload some pictures.

I have a lot of crap going on in my life right now. To keep it private, I've been blogging about it in my LJ. Feel free to add me. Even then I don't keep it too detailed.

Take care, everyone! I swear I'll get back on this site sometime soon. I'm working on getting a new layout up for PurrMeow.net, and then Ambitious! I'll try to get to this one next with a layout and the content back.

This has been a great day, let me tell you.

I accidentally went to bed late again. Not as late as I've been doing, but still. I was able to get up somewhat early; however, I was so weak and tired that I ended up taking a little nap on the couch. Eh, personal things. Personal things that haven't been this bad since I've been on birth control, yet decided to be mean today.

I pushed myself to get up and get to work, and I was doing fine for a while. I got a load of clothes washed and folded. Most of it's put away. I had to stop and reorganize a few drawers in the bedroom. Then I held off on my other chores to go pick one of my brothers up from school to drop him off at his doctor's appointment. That was fine, LeeLee and I were in the house all day yesterday, we needed to get out. Once he was done and we pulled out to head to the prescription shop, he pointed out that my car had leaked. A lot. The first thing I thought was that it was my coolant again. It's always the coolant.

I can't remember if it was last year or the year before, but I spent about $2,000 getting that bitch fixed. The coolant leaked into my engine and yeah... Between then and now I had to spend some money (probably just a few hundred) to fix the radiator that cracked. I caught that one because I tend to check my car a few times a month (I learned my lesson from the last time, lol). Since I caught it early enough, it was fixed before it was able to flood my engine AGAIN.

Once I parked at the prescription shop, my car started shaking and making some sort of noise. I didn't leave it on long enough to evaluate the sound. My mom was trying to contact my dad to pick my brother up on the way home from work, but he forgot his cell phone and had already left. It was probably 30 minutes later (after waiting 30 minutes for his prescription) when I got in contact with him. What sucks is that he had to drive BACK to town to get my brother and follow me home (in case my car died).

My dad arrived pretty quickly though, and when he first pulled up he said it smelled like my fuel was leaking. After touching the new puddle under my car he confirmed it. So... The whole time I was worried about my coolant again (I checked, and it was low after I just checked it days ago) and pissed since that's ALWAYS the issue... So... So, my car says, "The coolant trick's getting old? Oh, okay then! How about this then?! Huh? How's that?"

Long story short: Once again I'm spending my tax return on fixing my stupid car. I hate my car now. I just hope it won't be $2,000 again. I really needed ALL of my refund this year.

I swear, next year my car is going to be just like this, only not as funny.

Posted to my LJ and personal site...

We ended up closing a week early. Well, they changed it from the 14th to the 6th, Friday, since we didn't have too many groceries to sale. Then we ended up closing at 5pm on Thursday! That was BS. So, most employees had their final day on Saturday, two on Friday (we just followed the current schedule we had). I was surprised I was kept until the 11th. All I did was spend those last days cleaning and putting things on pallets. Cleaning a 3 year old store is nasty. I mean, it wasn't as bad as I expected, but it was still pretty damn nasty.

I did get my check with my vacation and that last week's work a few days later. What's great is that since the 8th was my 3rd year, they paid me for vacation for the upcoming year. I only worked 3 days of this new work year. What really sucks is that they taxed the hell out of my check. I was paid for vacation and for that last week, but they took so much in taxes out, that it's like I didn't even get paid for that week. They took $402.53 of taxes out, more than half of that in FED taxes. Damn. It. I've never had a check that high so I was surprised. I'm not really mad, just surprised. They still took some out for my 401K, which we were told would be paid out to us if it's under $1,000 and for my health plan that actually expired after 11:59pm on the 11th. That's either a mistake or crap.

I thought I was handling loosing my job pretty well. I was upset the first few days, which I expected, but I noticed yesterday how depressed I really am over it. The only time I'm happy is when I'm not thinking about it. That explains why I haven't found the energy to job hunt. What made me notice it at first was when I realized it had been one week since I was laid off. I was paid weekly, so that's one week of not getting paid. Then I went grocery shopping, which I put off for a while. Everything's so much more expensive than what we had at my store. I spent about $55 and I'm sure I could have only did about $30-something at my store. As pitiful as it sounds, seeing how busy it was upset me. My mom had went to that store a few days ago and asked the lady about jobs (for me), and she mentioned how much busier they were since we closed. One of my co-workers said she's not shopping in town anymore; however, I don't have time to drive 30 minutes to get groceries. I really want to since there's a store out there with pretty good prices (we get their ad out here), though.

I don't know. I think I'm going to take a couple of more days out and then kick myself in the butt to get out there. I've been indoors most of the time I've been off and I told myself it was because of the nasty weather (it actually snowed for a bit). That's partly true, yet as soon as we had a sunny day I didn't go out aside from picking up some fast food a couple of minutes away. I'm going to visit my grandma and then my mom later this afternoon, though. I don't feel like going out.

Edit (two second later, lol): Oh. I was looking at getting a new layout up. I had one I did a long time ago and never put up since I hate it so much. I still do. I don't have any ideas but I'll try to get something done.